july 29

i don't think most people would believe just how boring my days are. i check my watch maybe 20 times and calculate the exact percentage of the day i have completed; and therefore, determine how much is left. i try to cheer myself up by remembering what a blessing my job has been, but sometimes this only goes so far. of course, a job change at this point isn't really an option- i mean, i'd rather endure a year or so more of boredom in this job than begin looking elsewhere. oh well.. it's especially hard though when there are so many things that need to be done at home. but, it could be a lot worse, right?
 
anyway, been thinking a lot lately about becoming a parent. i think i'm finally at the point in my life where pregnancy, childbirth, childrearing all make sense. and, for the first time, it's not such an overwhelming idea. thank goodness! now, it's just a matter of time... i've worried a little that my desire (small as it may be) to plunge into parenthood is a reaction to or a symptom of my lack of happiness at work. but then i remember i haven't been happy at my job for 4.5 years, and i've never before warmed up to the idea of having children. so, it seems legitimate.

today

just opened a blog today at the prodding of my dear husband. apparently, he wants to know what i'm thinking each day which, i must say, is a good sign!
 
so, here's to you sawtooth!