Friday, July 28, 2006

july 28

i am sinful. the tragic thing is that it usually doesn't occur to me. in fact, it rarely has most of my life. i mean, i've always been the "good girl"- proudly never experimented with sex, drugs, alcohol. got straight As, revered God, loved my family. i never understood why my mom got tearful during mass or why i needed to ask for the same forgiveness that God granted to "other people". and confession? it took me a long time before i came up with something like "i was mean to my brother today". and now i find myself coming face to face with my own human depravity, fragility, sinfulness. and, it's the best medicine in the world.

3 comments:

Anonymous said...

it's a blessing from God to realize how human we are. the worst thing in the world is the dulling of our senses to our own depravity. my worst moments are when i realize how ugly i am inside and it doesn't even bother me that much--because i've gotten used to it.

amy said...

you should be a writer or something - that was really well put and a good summary of how many people experience life. i want to tell you "no you aren't sinful!!!" but i know we all are and i know the opening our eyes, hearts, and minds to it is this huge gift from God that enables transformation to take place - so that is now exactly what will happen with you -and i am looking forward to seeing what god has in mind (:

amy said...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO EVE TODAY!!!